beLIEved..

不舍得你

2011-09-01T21:45:00.000-07:00

善良，傻气，单纯，还有打“哈气” 很大声，都是属于你的性格。

从前的我们，从不觉得聚在一起的时间很短。。。因为我们不知道长大了分道扬镳的感觉，这次我清楚地感觉到了那种很不舍很不舍的心情。

小时候玩在一起, 从没想过有离别的一天..

从前的"再见"只是说说, 因为知道很快能再见面...

但是,今日的离别....好久才在和你见面...好久好久,我好不舍得你.

我不知道今次的道别要怎么说出口, 打从心里的不舍.

虽然你有几年并没有和我保持太密切的关系,但昔日的友情不是一朝一夕就能被忘记.

小时候美好的回忆在我脑海从没有被忘记..

难过的时候，是你开导我，带给我快乐。。快乐的时候，有你和我一起分享。。感觉真的很好。

看到你的笑容，我的心情也无意的被你感染，和你一起我的笑容是不经意的一只挂在脸上。只因为你把自己的快乐都带给了别人。

真的很让我很感激上天让我拥有你这个死党...总觉得你是傻大姐!!

这次你自己一个在国外，要照顾自己哦。。。

要快乐，要坚强，要懂得保护自己~~

我会很想你的。。会等你回来以及继续往日童年的快乐！！

我会为你祈祷，祈祷你快乐健康。

有些话收在心中彼此能感觉到。

但是这句话，我真想让你知道
“我对你的友情永不变”

Shopping time^^

2011-07-23T07:43:00.000-07:00

Shopping with my lovely sis today.

Reached 1U at 3 o clock and once we reached, we had our breakfast at BBQ plaza. while waiting the food, of course v capture picha!!

Waiting..~~~

waiting~~~and

waiting....

start playing around with the things over there...

finally can eat^^
my expression doesn't represent the taste of the food~~

Food in bbq plaza is so tasty, suit for those who love meats!!! nice TRY..

And we lost ourselves in 1U...
Find the FACE SHOP for half day...alamak...
Only walk for 4 hours already feel tired..so decided to go back.

On the way back we go for our favorite dessert, snow flakes.

Slurrp.... thumb up!!

forget to capture the snow flakes ....
End of our shopping n relaxing session.
SIMPLE but Perfect day^^

the MASK.

2011-07-15T13:07:00.000-07:00

People who wearing "mask" all the days

- smile even they are actually hate the people,
-they have to force themselves to talk even they wish to be quiet,
-they must be happy so tat people will approach them
and the most important thing is they have to
-treat other good even they dun wish to.

how sad??!!

People wish mask thought they can retain their original look after take off the scary mask, but they don't.
They original personality will just become like the fake mask as they use to wear.
And forever lost their own real personality.

People, if u choose to wear a mask n treat people, is up to you, cuz no one force u to do tat.
but pls dont, never ever take off yr mask in front if the people.
this will only show how ugly yr original face has become, is just as ugly as yr mask!!

NO one ask u to treat the person good if u dislike the people,
NO one force u to be good so tat people will approach u, is so fake!!

SHAME ON YOU.

Dun act to treat people good and back step the person.
PEOPLE can see how scary u are.

p/s: i don't mean anyone in this post, but if u feel anything, pls do self-criticism and take off the mask before u become as ugly as your mask.

养育之恩。。

2011-04-24T06:06:00.000-07:00

父母含辛茹苦把儿女养大，牺牲自己的时间精力，教导孩子，保护孩子，给孩子最好的，却把自己摆在最后一位。。

世界上除了父母，没有人会愿意没有怨言地为你做这些事。

父母，把你从小养到大。

父母，努力赚钱，把你送上最好的学校。

父母，给你他们的辛苦钱，让你去狂欢。

父母，努力达到你所有无力的要求。

父母，告诉你什么是对什么是错。

父母，教你人生道理。

父母，给你你所需要的。

父母，不分昼夜的照顾你。

父母，不论你如何对他们不敬，他们都不会放弃你。

父母，会在任何情况下都支持你。

父母，不会和你讨回他们所付出过的一切。

父母，是你永远的避风港。。

父母，求神拜佛都是为了孩子。

但是，如果他们听见孩子说：“他们养我这么多年，就折磨了我这么多年！！我没有那个必要对他们好，以后一定没有人理他！！最好锁锁在屋子，死在里面！！他以为给钱我就是对我好啊？？！！他不知道怎么对别人好！！”

我不是你的父母，我听了心都碎了。。

何况是父母。。

你是爸妈最疼得儿子，外人我们都知道，只有你不知道。

你是爸妈最担心的儿子，你不知道。

你是爸妈付出最多的儿子，你不知道。

你是那个可以令父母最伤心的那个，你不知道。

难道，父母有这个必要养你养这么大，让你咒骂吗？？！！

难道，你对他们好吗？？那你还有什么资格说父母不知道怎么对你好？？

父母有必要给你钱用吗?? 难道你又给过他们一分钱用吗？？！！！

你要父母死，那如果他们死了，你能活吗？？

你说父母折磨你，我想你才是折磨他们的那个，生你出来活受罪。

你说你没那个必要对他们好，那从此刻请你不要再接受你父母对你的好！！

你可以是一个很好的儿子，很孝顺的儿子，我们都知道。。

请你反省。。

你让我伤心了。。何况是父母，我难以想象。。。

appreciate...

2011-03-04T09:16:00.000-08:00

big family

A simple phrase, but....touches me..

" appreciate people around us"

People always says " why u treat me this bad?" "how can u do this to me?" " y u duwan to treat me better?"

But, after sometimes, i realize, how can people so selfish...... just hoping others to treat us good, but never try to improve myself to treat others good.

Is the time to change my mind, rather than asking " why not u treat me better or how can u treat me like this?" i should say "how can i treat u better n can i love u more??"

just a simple words can make people around me happier...can make u happier...

After sometimes i realize, all of my frens treat me really good, and no one is responsible to treat others good. but i m so lucky tat i got frens n family which really perfect^^..

10 years ++ de frens..

eeo hui ting, my da ga jie always, my besties my sister always n always...

Nicole, u n ting are the one i really cannot lose...u girls r the one who know me well

Yimin, got to say, u have a nice heart n nice body...hahahaha..

Wan yee, cool girl all the time..hahaha...when 玩起来，不是人

Stanely, always zat me, i wish one day we can talk nicely after 10 years zat-ting each other

Dai lou, dai lou always, always n always, the way u take care of people, really really good dao bao.

Amily, u r so wild in yr look but having a very nice heart..

Jason, mou mou mou mou mou, u r the one who know how to zuo ren, make the whole environment happy with yr mou mou mou^^

Chin hoe, man!!!

Jie han, future dentist, i miss u....u r so far from us, but yr ngong ngong de attitude always make me laugh for no reason.

Toto, always so beautiful, always so surprise everytime see u... have a kind heart ..

Janice, look so quiet, but u talk the most jokes always.

Kar yan, miss world memang miss world la, busy till whole year never see u d..

Ah xian, came to my room n said " hello" n went off....LMAO...

Bryan, look like hurricanes, n always bring us a lot of fun, and so handsome^^

Yee yeng, u r so xing fu now lo....the hapiness u pernah bring to me i will never forget...the way u talk always so loud n 大条筋..cute dao..

Always chao chao nao nao, joke always but got serious time too..

everyone of u, no matter what u guys did, i will support, n no matter what happen, if u need my help, i always be there for u guys..

frens are the fundamental thing that i need in my life....i love u all..

for my University frens, the best i ever had is u...karen jou...

u brought me lot lot lot memories...forever, i wont forget u...

there might be some mistaken between us before, but because we trust each other, v go though every obstacles...

u r no more my housemate or roomate, but gurl, u r my besties in shah alam...

Jason, u r the only guy in my house that will share with me yr stories...my sister, my brother my buddy, always scare me off then comfort me after that, always lie to me then tell me the truth after that, always laugh at me for my stupidness but still tell me the right things after that..thanks ya sis. muahahaha.

Ping wai, u know what i love u most, yr "bye bye"...i love the way u say bye...hahaha...love so much to disturb u when u r talking on phone.. like the way u teach me something which i confused in class.. u r genius in my heart la dude.

Mr ong, u r the dai go in the house, everything must be decided by u...make me feel so secure because got someone like u in the house...i appreciate u so much...thanks for everything u did for us.

Small small ong, u memang xiao po in the house, but i love it...talk so frankly to me...i love the way u talk like the way u behave like the way u laugh like the way u telling jokes..^^ u r such a cute girl...i make fren with u with my 101% sincere, hard to find someone like u, always happy...kai xin guo... next will be the time for me n u to create out stories ya.^^

Sharon, u r the dai ga jie, tough looking but soft inside...there might be something happen to u n make u feel stress when u back to home, but the door of our home always open for u, even if it is lock, u can use yr key and open it ya...no matter whenever u need my help in study, i will try my best to helo u if u can...k...dun sad...dun stress...let us distress u..muahahah.

eddie, u are so cool sometimes with yr soundless earphone...hahaha....yr joke is always so serious...but u make me become much more smart now..always remember the 1st lie u told me...hahaha...

to my "worker", u r really a special fren, care for me so much....talk so much to me...like the way u talk n telling 冷笑话.. cuz really funny. thanks for all the time u comfort me when i facing some problem.. thanks for telling me all the jokes always...thanks for make my ordinary day perfect!! u r special, u r lovely, u r cute....

and last

Darling, although we might have some arguments, but i can feel the way u treat me...

even though i can enjoy the life of rich people, but i can enjoy the love that u gave me, not much, but enough for me.

Despite i did a tan of mistakes, u still with me...be my port always n always...

The last place that i will stop after all.

i love eeeeeeuuuu^^

they are just so simple, but bring me lots of memories

2011-01-25T05:08:00.000-08:00

FRIENDS, the most important things to me besides my family..

my friends are so simple, so cute, so active, so sporting..

they can just make my ordinary day become so wonderful.

WE can smile for no reason....happy for the whole day, just because we are TOGETHER.

Outing with frens..always the best....

we can LAUGH like no body business.

we can BLOW WATER like no one bother..

SPRING in car like car de absorber damn good.

SING in car like no one in the car...

TRAVEL even i never join, but they SHARE me all the happy moment happy incidents during the trip.

CELEBRATE party like everyday also can celebrate...shuang shuang then party..

Even sometimes there are some arguments, but arguments will never spread us apart.

fights make us understand each other more..

and make bond of our friendship stronger.

Although i m a bit blur in my fren gang,but i still very xin fu, cuz they all really care about me and each other so much...

make me feel so warm cuz friends can occurs whenever u need them,care about u help u...share problems, share happiness..

Whenever we go, as long as we are together, we are happy..

no matter how old we have grown, we are still friends.

doesn't matter how long we never meet each other, just a "hi", we can become best friend like we used to.

No matter who marry 1st, promise will invite all our friends ya!!

tepanyaki

outing v mr loh.

sing k v mr.loh n friends.

mou mou mou mou mou

girls outing...

macam CNY de primary school mates gathering

christmas party

suka suka then party..^^

say "dao rae"

da jie n me de birthday!!

superficial view..cease!!

2010-12-17T09:31:00.000-08:00

TIME CHANGES EVERYTHING.

and so time changed me..

was a girl with very superficial view towards all the people around me and things happens...

now...

simple things turn complicated...

simple life is no more belong to me.

shallow views no more occurring in my mind.

just like.

lollipop cant satisfied me anymore.

sweets cant makes me smile for the whole days like a child...

ice cream cant let me forget sadness.

reality is cruel..n i m living in a reality place with irresistible temptations.

which awaken me.

fairytale life never exist...fairy tale life isn't for me..

imma not cinderella, sit on dark dusty cellar, met her prince.

imma not snow white, waiting for her handsome prince.

vanish gradually, which destroyed by time n harsh reality.

what u see doesn't mean is true or real..

what u tot is correct often wrong

where u think u should belong to often not.

what u think u should have often lose at the end of the story.

and..for someone i do really care...

i hate tat when u just simply promise and u disappointed me once again...

i take it serious for every word u said, dont you know.

u jerk!!

i had a plan...

2010-10-28T11:03:00.000-07:00

tis was the 1st time i m so carefully in planning something...even in every small little things, i try to make it perfect.

after i planned all the single things, something happen n i cant do what i wish i could.

i m really really upset n i dunno what is the best way for me to convey my feeling to people around me...i try to tell..but i dunno what m i talking about. i m insane perhaps.

whats going on now is really not what i desired!!

there is nothing i could use to describe my feel..

i gave up all the other things, cuz i hate whatever related to it now.

i wish i could go aways from here...

bad things always come together..

something really bad happened last few months..

just like a nightmare

till now my mind keep thinking the same idiot thing....

i really feel tat i m such a mess...i just cant let go

something i really appreciate n love.

but darlie, you do hurt me so bad...

i just cant control myself to stop thinking bout wat u did to me...

everytime u silence, all those disgusting things will keep goes around me..

i feel suffocated. tried so hard for me to get through tat ...

just not to lose u...

but can u pls STOP!! stop make me feel i wanna give up all the things i did...

i m not a superwoman or any substance that does not have any feeling.

seriously, now i was scared out out of my wits and walked on trembling with fear.

i dont like tis at all...i just dun understand y u change lots...

a lot...cant take it sometimes.

but still, u really means lots to me...

just hope everything will over soon.

dun let me give up

happy^^

2010-08-06T07:38:00.000-07:00

on the way becoming a pharmacist. i know it is a long and tough way, but i gonna do it well.
problems solved...happy^^

the onli thing now i face is a friend leave me for a reason tat i dunno...
i know it is a misunderstand, but i really give up to explain d.
let it be. maybe tis is wat we call " friendship"

tomolo going to have a walk v my darling...^^
i enjoy my study, enjoy v my friends, enjoy v my life and my family.

daddy fall sick , high fewer. god, pls bless my dad. i love him.

wats wrong

2010-07-28T02:29:00.000-07:00

i dunno wats going with y life..
everything messed up just like tat.

i dun realise i did anything wrong, but everything around me keep went wrong.
wat the hell is tis.

i dun use to share my things v others, i will oni share v those two girls.
now, one of them leave me, for a reason tat i dunno.
i freaking sad.
i cant believe tat a friendship can be easily break just like tat.
Friendship forever.?.? i wish tat i have one more chance to say tis again.hmmmmmm

somemore, my bachelor course, i worry tat i will be kick off. lecturer just told me tat " the no. of students in pharmacy course already over quota, u are still an inactive(mean i haven register) student in bachelor pharmacy, so ...i gotta check again." wat the fuck is tis????????????????????????????????????????????????????

love, argue often occur between us, m i the problem creator?
some words really hurt babe. u will never ever know tat.
hurt me deeply, accepted apologize to make myself feel better.
i know wats going on , i know wats the truth.

i will treat everyone like how they treat me.
not worth to treat someone good when v realize tat v are nothing in their heart.
wasted!!!!!

i am really tired to be a girl been controlling like a doll.
" no tis no tat"
i have been listening to tis over 19 years.
can pls stop tis.??

and, i hate begging people just for something.

no more spending too much of love..
stupid, love myself more...
cuz, i have nothing.

missing you..

2010-06-17T20:31:00.000-07:00

he went to thailand de...for 1 week...
i planned to go to penang during this week but really cant due to some problem.
since yesterday he went, i onli realise tat how important is he for his family and me...

i think i should take over his father to drive yesterday, cuz i realize tat his dad cant drive well since his age is already big. anyway, i feel sorry for him cuz let him drive bac...
i m sorry....

anyway, is unbelievable tat i lead them the way bac to rawang...amazing right??
hahaha.....

lastly, i wanna shout loudly until all the people in thailand can hear
" LAU KIN HEE!! I MISS YOU!!"

nightmare X.X

2010-06-13T01:35:00.000-07:00

was weird to dream the same dream in two days...is a true nightmare for me.
wats in my dream???
nothing like monster or ghost or accident or disaster..
no!

is just..." i argue v my bf"
actually i m not tat worry bout this but just feel kind of weird...
the exactly same dream occurs when i sleep for the continuous two nights...
hmmm...weirdo...

m so boring now n having big apple donuts in bp mall now....i m very full..
full until feel wanna vomit...

i m donuts girl.....

donuts girl live happily ever after v her donuts!!hehe

phewww.....

2010-06-11T08:10:00.000-07:00

everything make me feel wanna piss off....
make me feel guilty after i tell wats in my mind....
i m very suffer...but i cant tell i cant tell i cant tell i cant tell!!!!

SUFFER!!!!!!!

wanna scream....

sometime these come across my mind

" who m i ???"
" so??"
" i m not important"

graduate!!!!!!

2010-05-31T18:54:00.000-07:00

today is my last day for foundation programme...thanks god, i graduate in 1 year, my effort is now been seen by graduation...hooray!!!!

days are bored.....

n some funny ideas goes through my mind
" i wan a world of two people!!"
quite missing those time i just coupled up..
always been here n there, n always been both of us...
always been talking bout both of us...
always been looking at each other just like fool..
miss miss miss....

n well, i gonna have my holiday before i go to degree...
gonna enjoy it well, without my beloved one since he is going to be very busy...
i gonna enjoy it myself v all my buddies...

today i have date m segi fren to go out but due to some problem i gonna reject it....
sorry for never do as wat i promised...

i wanna go out i shopping like mad woman...ahahaha....
i dun mind if i m alone or i m accompanied by someone else....
i just wanna buy something tat i wan.

i wanna go out at night to release all my tension n stress tat i have been keep in my deep heart for 1 year since i m in MSU...i need space...i need fun...
i need relax n i need alcohol!!
anyway, i m not alcoholic...
just the way to release my stress tat i have been keeping it for 1 year!!!!
duhhhhhhhhh....

sing, play, scream, run, mad, move, dance, shake, n sleep....i wan this...
i wanna i can go travel v my darling.
i wanna i can have party v my frens n darling...
i wanna yum cha v my buddies to talk bout our life...
i wanna sing v nicole choong n hui ting...
i wanna stay v cole n ting in a house, chat until midnight bout our chick life...
i wanna go out at night just to walk around looking around v my darling...
i wanna go to beach n have a nice date v my beloved darling...
i wanna go to have swim v my frens....
i wanna shopping n eat v my frens......
i wanna sleep in my beloved body when i tired.
i wanna smile n laugh loudy...
i wanna jump beside dar when my darling sleep...ahahaha...
i wanna go for work to get money...poor girl...
n rest of my time...
i wanna spend it all v my family...

ta da!!

changed...

2010-05-20T21:43:00.000-07:00

everything are against me in this moment. i dunno where do i belong to....
i feel so unsecure, n prefer to be alone at this moment...love to be lonely....cuz i m too messy ..
i couldnt control my mind, my emotion, everything...
i m not even belong to meself..

now, i rather want to be alone than having a lot of peoples around me.
i dunno wats wrong going on!!
is so irritating.
i cant adapt myself in all this situation.

i dun scream, i dun talk, i dun cry, in front of anyone.
cuz i dunno how to express myself.
i dunno!!! seriously dunno...

i just know something going wrong ..n i cant solve it...
n i m keeping it.. i dun willing to speak to anyone since i feel no one can really listen to me...
i choose not to be alone, but i feel myself being dumped!!!

work?? love??life???

pls!!! i hate all this...

i dun wan to care about anyone anymore!!!

i duwan to think bout other people feeling anymore.

i m suffer!!!!!!!!!! no one know tho.
but i know this well....

seriously, i need someone to talk...

but y...i counldnt talk this u....i coulndnt talk this to my family or even fren....

cuz i deserve to it.....

fine.. i think too much??? ....maybe....i m psycho....
i m mad.....
dump me pls!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i found tat, even talking is hard for me now.......

when hapiness gone

2010-05-19T03:19:00.000-07:00

i realise i m alone always...even in my study, career n life....actually is not a big deal...
i just couldnt get support from my beloved one...
its ok...

he dunno how much he mean to me...he dunno how much important is he...and he dunno how mush his support to me cost...
cant do something well without him...seriously i couldnt..

is just a small matter n doesnt worth for my tears...
my tears become unvalued at this moment since i just cant stop crying...
i need him....i need his support, i need him to agree v what i do, but not just let me do what ever i want without agree v me....

anyway.. still love him so much...i m sorry to be so stubborn...
T.T
i need u....

爱。。。

2010-05-12T07:04:00.000-07:00

当你爱上一个人，你的行为会变得愚蠢，思想变得幼子。。。总之是变了个样。
遇见你，我觉得好幸运。
再见你，好开心。。
在一起，好幸福。。。。
如果要我离开你，我会好伤心，好难过。。

我总是希望能做些什么让你开心。
可是总是让你更伤脑筋。。。

其实我真的有凡是为你想先，可是我的头脑总是想得好简单。。。所以总是只让你辛苦。
我该学的也许不是为你着想，而是把思想逻辑化。
因为我自认，你是我做任何事的其中原因...

anyway...i m just simply missing u too much...n write this blog for u....
glad to be v u....

1st day as smart reader teacher..

2010-05-06T01:42:00.000-07:00

well, had a very good day today ..but have a bit rush and cant really manage v my time well.
i will try to improve tat...

such a big changes in my life...1st time being a teacher n mingle v so many kids...such a weird feeling...
i love kids much...^^
and suddenly feel so sorry for my teacher who i had disobey before.
i know yr feeling now...its tired to guide kids actually...
cant really adapt to my job today...
such as teaching over time, cant communicate well v children, dunno wat to do ....
but i believe tat can manage it soon...here is some picture v my cute students...

i enjoy v them....
love^^

i need a job

2010-05-03T04:36:00.001-07:00

i m so free recently....n i need a job to fill my time.....
i went for some video shoot n photoshoot last week.... here are those photos

lame..

2010-04-08T19:59:00.000-07:00

my life going like according to a timetable...boring...
studies had full fill my time...
fun is no longer be with me...maybe i myself is a boring person...
hmmmmmm....

feel like having some crazy thing to do...
i wanna sing like a bird, dance like a frog???!!
fun!! but i think i just oni can imagine...cuz i m not allowed to...
everything around me just book.
everyone around me just wan me to be a good girl, with good manners, every of the good things must be on me...

seriously, i dun like...
they dunno...i love fun, i love to laugh, i love to be myself....
i feel tied up...
unhappy...

有你真好^^

2010-03-22T10:49:00.000-07:00

昨天去攝影。。大熱天的。。。在太陽底下拍照，是挺累人的。。。
darling也陪我一起去了。雖然一路上是一只在嘴裏念啦，不過行動上卻還是支持著我的。。。哈哈哈。。。晚上到soul out 吃晚餐^^

很珍惜這段感情。。也很感謝我的過去。
沒有他，我不會長大。也不會懂得怎麽珍惜自己。。

兩個人不一定是要想情侶那樣摟摟抱抱，偶爾像朋友那樣喝下茶，談下一些無聊不過的話題，也能在其中感覺甜蜜。

有你真好。。。

想。。發泄。。

2010-03-18T12:01:00.000-07:00

i wish i could shout abuse without any restraint...!!!
lots of unhappy keep in side my heart n i wish i could shout n scold like a mad woman.

i feel upset for things n people around me....
like....things changes too fast..
o i moving too slow...

somemore....i feel shameful on somekind of people around me...
when they need help they will come to u n when they r not they will disappear as far as they can..
hmmm....maybe this is how a people should behave as now a days..
anyway..i just ignore..
shameful!!
anyway, i just love my real frens..

tears...

2010-03-17T07:20:00.000-07:00

Sometimes i would cry like a babe...but when this happen, it means i really sad i i couldnt take it anymore...
always just to pretend, keep quiet, smile...
doesnt mean i m ok...i m just want other people see the better face from me.

things become more complicated when the opinion between each other is different.
words cant explain wat is in my mind, tats y i am quiet once again.
but at the same time, my heart is like tying with thousands of ropes..
feel so sad, so pain..
this feeling was so strong and this hurts me...

i never mean to cry..
i feel helpless when i cry...

tell me y..i always feel the same way.

2010-03-05T03:59:00.000-08:00

its always the same, always and always...its like. i always the loser. no matter what happen, at last i will feel that i m the one who wrong, i m the one who always like to create the problems.

i dun understand y does this happen to me.
i angry, then i was wrong.
i chi cu, then i was the one who wrong too.
well....
this is all what i feel myself.
i feel guilty after i angry n i feel so sorry after i chi cu...

what happen to me??
i hope that i can stop my mind. shut my mouth.
so that i couldnt think anything bad n say anything that might bring problems to us.

i m stupid. speechless...
i should shut my mouth next time.

矛盾啊！！！！！

i cant control...i m sorry...

2010-03-04T07:36:00.000-08:00

i know i shouldnt angry or take this as a big problem, but i am sorry...i really shouldnt control my emotion.i know i am too sensitive about that, i am trying to act tat i feel nothing but i couldnt.

always listen to people said tat girl with horoscope cancer always feel unsecured, this is true.
this isnt neither you nor my fault.

i'll will be okie.

希望你諒解，原諒我的野蠻。

wat i can do is....

2010-02-03T04:36:00.000-08:00

firstly..
my darling was facing some problem in his work this few days...
i feel i so incompetent as i couldnt do anything to help him to settle the problem he facing..

while...wat i can do is:
- take care of myself...
-no more brainless action tat might cuz him unhappy..
-love him n care him as usual

okie....at least i try not to be useless..

second thing i would like to post her is---
<>

yesterday was our anniversary ..although v never celebrate, but we dont mind.
as long as our heart is together.^^
again i m here to tell u
i love u..

third:

i rejected a work....T.T
quite sad ...
but i have to do so....
my exam clash...
but this doest the main reason...
hmmm....cuz no one support me..

thinking to do some part time job..cuz i m really shameful when i just take money form my daddy like that...
i feel i m really useless..
imma 19 years old n i do nothing...contribute nothing to my family...
T.T
sad when i think this...

what can i really do...

lastly.

happy birthday to putra
happy 21 birthday....
stay handsome n healthy always..

v all love u

chilis"

2010-01-28T07:29:00.000-08:00

today went to midvalley with my beloved kin hee....
but i bought nothing...so surprising actually..
this is just because i m not really feeling well n dun have the mood to buy....
pity my bf always pay for me...

and i having stick for my dinner in chilis!!
damn happy and satisfied...
thank you for my loving boy friend.

and...i feel tat serious very fat now a days....hmmm...have to lose weight d....seriously....
actually quite sad lo..T.T

pretended to kill him....

waiting n waiting...hungry...

lamb chop
grilled chicken

see his happy expression when see food...he hungry for whole day d...
sha sha de darling

thank you and love u my darling...

END

sorry for you..

2010-01-20T07:04:00.000-08:00

everything changed when we moved in to a new house...time for us to talk less... n i did a big mistake..i never believe on my friend once...i m sorry...

i spent so much time with her in old house, n i should know her well but this time i was foolish on what i did...i admit that i believe on what i see by myself at first and chosen not to asked her.
but...at last i still have a talk with her because i duwan to lose her.

i know my suspicious might hurt her...this is the reason i post this thing to apologize for her..

sorry babe..forgive me pls..i should trust on you...

i wanna move out...

2010-01-14T03:23:00.000-08:00

i m planning to find one house to rent. and i wan to find my own housemates. i feel so stress with these all house problems la...annoying and affected my study.
piss off pls..

one n two people keep making problem make the whole house feel so unhappy. for me is make big problem small, for them is make small problem big....i wanna know wat the stuff is in thier brain.. feudal minded!!
just a small matter can make it like war in the house n i have to become the middle person...
painstaking~~

n i realise tat i misunderstand my friend yesterday after i had a talk v her. so sorry...
but sometimes i still believe on what i see n hear myself.

these few days i feel so blur without him...today i not as suffer as 1st day. i feel better than yesterday and i know tomolo i will be better^^
i crash a car yesterday, i bump to the toilet door after tat, and today i was still dreaming when traffic light already turn green, wake up only when other people horn me..

what am i thinking...gosh...

today did my presentation for IT...and taken some photos after that...

actually i m copying indian dancing pose..i know this doesnt look like..haha
she try to seduce me..

after eating an ice cream i will become this happy!!

bella n me

my group members...

i miss my darling so much T.T....really super miss...

i miss him lots

the 2nd day he went..

2010-01-12T21:05:00.000-08:00

today i feel much more better from yesterday...i start to get use of the day without him for whole day...miss him lot n waiting for him to come back...

but now, at this moment, i feel very disappointed with my friend attitude...she can tells lies without feeling guilty. i see her clearly this time.
friendship changed!!
i want to know why u change yr attitude like this.

speechless.

if u wan to do like tat, then you go, i will not treat u good anymore. unless u change.

i couldn't imagine

2010-01-11T06:05:00.000-08:00

tomolo he will leave to bali. just a week but for me is like whole year...
even from now , i miss him badly already...i really cant imagine how could i stay this week without u at all. and so cant even contact u v hp...

seriously torturing me...
thinking study in other university to continue my degree.
but..
how can leave without u by my side T.T

these few days i will stick myself with the damn facebook and blogger as well.
sleep early, wake up late, rush for class, come back sleep, facebook, blog, n waiting for your call in between of all that.

i will kiss my doll like kissing u...ahaahahaha.....

miss you darling...i will take care and have fun for yr trip...god bless you!!
i love you

u tot i m lulu??!!

2010-01-05T18:20:00.000-08:00

dun try to ORDER me to do something!!!....who r u...??!!
iwwww...i m fed up v this type of yr attitude...dont you know??
at least u should know wat is manner..

arrrggg..dun try to challenge my patience..

new year^^

2010-01-04T00:09:00.000-08:00

i had a very great night with my dear frens and my darling...thanks lots for the count down plan darling..

v had our dinner in DELICIOUS in KL...a very nice looking place and its food is really same as its name..delicious...
*thumb up*

then v went for gosh!! my 1st time n my bf ... !! he told me no this no that before go in. hahaha....i know he worry....there are almost 25 of us went there...crazy new year eve!!!

i met them there...at 1st i dunno they will be there....i m so lucky!!

......me n darling......

me n thiam loong

there r nice!!

me n carence

i brought this home

i had a very nice new year..thanks for my darling n my frens!! i love you~~darling!!

i dun like the problem...

2010-01-03T23:50:00.000-08:00

huh...??this was wat came out when i read something in my comment in my facebook??
i just wanna let it go...i just wanna forget it..when will this nightmare can be end??

well...is like this...i wrote something on my wall.." u r nothing in my heart since tat day,bustard" n i receive a comment from a girl" pls mind yr words(in chinese)"...hmmm....
frankly..i m a bit shock when i read tat n i doesnt mean anything to anyone...just someone make me angry n i wanna to scream out my mood.....n i got tat back...
fuh...

its ok...i know she misunderstand..but i dun really feel good in this moment cuz everything come to my mind again....

i wanna let it pass...
no more problem between me n u n yr family...
i just wanna stay in fren relation k??
i duwan any problem anymore...

good girl v high education sometimes in bad mood n bad words too...no one perfect,n i m not as well.

mike birthday party in th ship

2009-10-30T00:31:00.000-07:00

i went to mike de birthday party in kl the ship...hurmmm..
not really much words between me n him, like stanger although v know each other...
never mind... i dun really mind it...

there i know more new frens, chariance,eve,hee,jack,vickey,jum,weshane....

i love them so much^^

the end.....

BLIND DATE

2009-10-18T03:54:00.002-07:00

my day began with getting a electric shock by a hair dryer?!!!
the whole house blacked out..duh..
ya...tats how i began my day..
jus because i was rushed to a stupid date.

my black day doesnt end just like tat.
i was fetched by my fren n i noticed a unfamiliar guy was there too.
silent for few minutes n i decided to break the icing situation.
WELL, i had work out nothing.

this embbarass situation continue until v reach rawang to fetch another girl.
ok, i dunno the girl as well.
the situation is out of my expectation at all.
i wish i can jump down from the car tat time.
there r 2 girls 2 boys in the car
n i dunno neither the girl n the boy.
freak

when i reached times square,v met v another couple tat i dunno too, the onli guy i know left me behind v the guy i dunno.
n hang v the girl.
i damn embarass since tat was the 1st time i met the guy n i have nothing to talk v him
AT ALL
fuhh...when onli the situation become better?
the most freak time is when v were in the cinema
two guys beside me is the two i dunno.
the guy who i onli know sit v the girl he like n dumped me aside
argggggggggg...i feel wanna go back myself..
i never talk v the guy beside me not even a single word.

finaly the movie end n tat was the most happy moment i had in times squre
cuz finally i can go back HOME
but...my bad dreams never end yet.
v went for lunch (sinch morning i never take my breakfast)
n when v went for lunch, no one of them order food, just drinks?!
ok..although onli x rays can penetrate through my face, but i not dare to order food n let everyone there(strangers) looking at me when eat.
seriously, i was hungry tat time, but the feel of embarass have full fill me.

everything came to the end after the 'lunch'
THANKS GOD.

n i swear to his mum, this is the 1st n the last time.
no more blind date for me!!

the day went 1u..

2009-10-13T21:01:00.000-07:00

he can sing like a singer..seriously...fall in love when he is singing.wow..awesome

tat day went 1 u with this funny guy n the other frens..
so much fun..

now missing tat day cuz i am too boring to stay at home for 3 weeks for nothing...
o m g..
who can bring me out..

haha...nice meal v had..

ok...now sitting at home, meaningless...grrrr...
how can i spend my holiday like this...
couldnt even find a word to describe the boringness i go through now..
eww...